Y } Wednesday, November 30, 2005
finally. i realise. all al0ng y0o`re jjus playin wit my feelins.
all al0ng w0 zhi shi yi xiang qing yuan.
tis is e` first tyme a guy treated mi liddat.
cuz e` guys wh0m i 0nce lyked were all my ex.
ya e` first. e` first wh0 played my feelings and all.
guess y0o jjus wanna try 0ut new gerhs ehs?
den y0o g0t tired 0f it. den threw mi aside ehs?
guess i`m ryte bahs.
i th0t 0f y0o t0o "wunderfully".
finally i see thru y0o.
i hate y0o. i hate y0o f0r t0rturin me lyke tis.
all y0or shweet talks are jjus JUNKS.
i will REC0VER.
i will REC0VER.
\ i'm all about you.
9:37 AM
Y } Sunday, November 27, 2005
h0td0g,,
t0dae i saw y0o n her. but i d0n tynk y0o realise tad.
t0dae i saw y0o n her. but i d0n tynk y0o realise tad.
wen i feel e` happiness in y0o n her,, i tynk tad it`s tyme fer mi t0 leave.
afterall i`m jjus a n0b0dy wh0 shan`t be there.
y0o tw0 are e` perfect c0uple.
i can`t bear t0 see her hartbr0ken. y0o tw0 bel0ngs t0gether.
i guess i shan`t stay any l0nger.
i`ll jjus cause m0re injuries t0 myself.
i d0n wish t0 be a third party.
th0u` i wish tad 0ne dae,, y0o c0uld be mine,, but i w0uld rather sacrifice myself than t0 break s0me0ne`s hart.
w0 de liang xin hui gu0 bu qu.
i h0pe y0o can l0ve her WH0LEHARTEDLY.
th0u` i wish tad 0ne dae,, y0o c0uld be mine,, but i w0uld rather sacrifice myself than t0 break s0me0ne`s hart.
w0 de liang xin hui gu0 bu qu.
i h0pe y0o can l0ve her WH0LEHARTEDLY.
\ i'm all about you.
8:16 PM
Y } Thursday, November 24, 2005
t0dae went t0 w0rk wad jun jie rec0mmended.
arse man.
heees(;
\ i'm all about you.
7:27 PM
Y } Monday, November 21, 2005
t0dae last dae w0rk e` survey derhs.
cuz tired. hahas. den s0 c0incidece.
e` survey derh b0oth wanna cl0se d0wn lerhs.
cuz n0t earning m0ney. hahas.
den mi n wei ling help them `chai dia0` e` b0oth.
s0 fun.
j0ke ab0ut it wit th0mas.
and he gimme tad kinda "y0o arse" l0ok.
XPP
den bring tyngs back t0 0ffice.
arse man~
e` tyngs g0ddam heavy!~
=_-
t0m0rr0w gettin pay lerhs!
yeas.
hundred n fifteen bucks.
whee~ hahas.
twelve liddat den reach h0me.
tired.
\ i'm all about you.
7:22 PM
Y } Sunday, November 20, 2005
0ohs.
t0dae went w0rk. ezycash survey.
hahas.
di0 reject till numb lerhs.
hahas. hmms.
but fun larhs.
rwealluii veh veh fun! hahas.
th0u` will tired. hahas.
and i n0e `h0td0g` t0dae. hahas.
hmms. `h0td0g` is library derhs exhibiti0n staff.
hahas. hmms.
frenly barhs. hahas(:
\ i'm all about you.
7:18 PM
Y } Friday, November 18, 2005
t0dae i heard e` news. tad he n her did stead.
but br0ke 0ff tw0 daes ag0.
i`m messed up.
i dunn0 h0w i sh0uld be feelin.
i jjus n0e tad wen i heard it,, i wanna cry.
but i did n0t.
i held back my tears n smiled.
i wanna seems as if i d0n even give a damn.
it`s my
hidden tears.
my aunt cut my fringe t0dae.
my aunt cut my fringe t0dae.
gawd. bef0re she cut,, it`s e fringe tad i wanted;;
except tad it`s ABIT t0o l0ng.
but after cut lerhs,, sp0il lerhs. hais.
t0dae sarks.
t0dae sarks.
\ i'm all about you.
3:13 PM
Y } Wednesday, November 16, 2005
i dreamt 0f him in e` middle 0f e` nyte,,
and i criied.
\ i'm all about you.
2:59 PM
Y } Monday, November 14, 2005
gawd. my friinge! criies* went reb0nd t0dae and cut my friinge.
s0 weird!!! T_T
\ i'm all about you.
6:04 PM
Y } Sunday, November 13, 2005
papa,,
h0pe y0o w0nt be s0 stressed.
we`ll tynk 0f s0me 0ther wehs t0gether derhs!
(X
\ i'm all about you.
6:10 PM
Y } Saturday, November 05, 2005
s0 many tymes,,
i`ve been sayiin tad i d0n wanna get int0 an0ther rship.
but everytyme i still did.
but tis tyme,,
i did n0t.
i`m kinda pr0ud 0f tad.
=X
ystd nyte,,
befer i slept,,
suddenly th0t 0f wad he taught mi.
he taught mi n0t t0 get angruii wit th0se y0o d0n care.
simply cuz they aren`t w0rth.
(:
i learnt.
i imply.
(:
i seems t0 ferget everytyng else,,
but n0t wad he said n did n EVERYTYNG.
gawd.
wad am i d0in.
i`ve been sayiin tad i d0n wanna get int0 an0ther rship.
but everytyme i still did.
but tis tyme,,
i did n0t.
i`m kinda pr0ud 0f tad.
=X
ystd nyte,,
befer i slept,,
suddenly th0t 0f wad he taught mi.
he taught mi n0t t0 get angruii wit th0se y0o d0n care.
simply cuz they aren`t w0rth.
(:
i learnt.
i imply.
(:
i seems t0 ferget everytyng else,,
but n0t wad he said n did n EVERYTYNG.
gawd.
wad am i d0in.
\ i'm all about you.
4:25 PM
Y } Friday, November 04, 2005
wh0as..
t0dae seven plus wake up lerhs!
and it`s h0lidae!
T_T
went xiia0 yi h0use.
hmms. ah b0ii m0re n m0re n0ttie lerhs.
):
hmms. he g0t caned by xiia0 yi.
den after tad went amk c d0c.
jun yi fever.
jun yi fever.
den went th0ms0n.
ah ma`s bag `chuang` da0 a t0rt0ise.
den da p0.
den mus pay.
hahas.
den went baq t0 ah ma h0use.
den g0 sleep.
den wake up lerhs take bus baq wit mama.
(:
st0opid bus.
s0 many ppl.
hahas. lalalas. siians. lalalas.
\ i'm all about you.
8:05 PM
Y } Thursday, November 03, 2005
t0dae`s kinda b0riin.
s0meh0w s0rted 0ut my bl0gguii tyngy.
e skin. (:
went ah ma h0use tudae.
went ah ma h0use tudae.
but went bukit panjang plaza first.
mama asked e `jie jie` ab0ut my pay.
but e` b0ss went 0verseas. ):
den went mini t0ons and mama b0ught e` plant.
and i b0ught a pencil b0x.
DARK PINK. (:
i L0VE it. <33
(: ate my breakfast cum lunch there.
quite nyce barhs. hahas. (:
den went ntuc, den baq t0 ah ma h0use.
den evening papa c0me drive.
(: actually e` wh0le dae have been w0rryin ab0ut facin papa.
but everythin went sm0othly.
phew~ (:
cuz mama 0pen car d0or fer mi den papa ask why never give mama tips.
den as n0rmal j0ke ar0und. (:
i en0y being daddy`s gerh. (:
mwarhs. <33
\ i'm all about you.
8:45 PM
Y } Wednesday, November 02, 2005
MAMA,, PAPA,,
everytyng i do seems t0 be wr0ng.
s0metymes i w0nder,,
why?
i understands why i cant use frenster.
but why n0t bl0ggin?
i d0 feel e` gap t0o.
but i realluii d0n feel lyke d0in anythin ab0ut it.
cuz whatever i d0 alwehs seems t0 be wr0ng.
i d0n wanna get an0ther sc0ldin wen i`m tryiin t0 s0lve it.
MAMA,,
i alwehs th0t tat y0o hated mi.
i d0nn0 why.
i`ve alwehs th0t tad but ystd wen y0o t0ld mi tad y0or hart aches wen i went t0 w0rk.
tad`s why y0o alwehs came n help mi.
i admit i`m kinda sh0cked.
mayb i th0t y0or hatred fer mi,,
i`m being 0ver-reactin.
PAPA,,
h0w c0uld y0o expect mi t0 t0k t0 y0o ab0ut my pr0blems?
ya a guy,,
n i`m a gerh.
we tynks DIFFERENTLY.
i n0e y0o did sae t0k t0 mama.
but s0meh0w i jjus feel tad i cant 0pen my m0uth n t0k ab0ut it.
cuz i alreaduii n0e wad y0o all g0nna sae.
it`s lyke alwehs e` same.
mayb i jjus d0n wanna hear tyngs i d0n wan t0.
mayb i`m jjus runnin aweh.
findin xcuses fer myself n all.
mayb i rather tis weh.
i d0nn0.
e` reas0n why i d0n let y0o all understand mi is cuz i d0n even understand myself.
h0w am i supp0sed t0 let y0o understand me wen i d0n even understand?
we can`t c0mmunicate.
it`s n0t i d0n wan t0.
mayb i jjus dare n0t.
th0u` i n0e y0o wun get t0 read all tis,,
i still writes.
mayb i`m jjus expectin a MIRACLE.
everytyng i do seems t0 be wr0ng.
s0metymes i w0nder,,
why?
i understands why i cant use frenster.
but why n0t bl0ggin?
i d0 feel e` gap t0o.
but i realluii d0n feel lyke d0in anythin ab0ut it.
cuz whatever i d0 alwehs seems t0 be wr0ng.
i d0n wanna get an0ther sc0ldin wen i`m tryiin t0 s0lve it.
MAMA,,
i alwehs th0t tat y0o hated mi.
i d0nn0 why.
i`ve alwehs th0t tad but ystd wen y0o t0ld mi tad y0or hart aches wen i went t0 w0rk.
tad`s why y0o alwehs came n help mi.
i admit i`m kinda sh0cked.
mayb i th0t y0or hatred fer mi,,
i`m being 0ver-reactin.
PAPA,,
h0w c0uld y0o expect mi t0 t0k t0 y0o ab0ut my pr0blems?
ya a guy,,
n i`m a gerh.
we tynks DIFFERENTLY.
i n0e y0o did sae t0k t0 mama.
but s0meh0w i jjus feel tad i cant 0pen my m0uth n t0k ab0ut it.
cuz i alreaduii n0e wad y0o all g0nna sae.
it`s lyke alwehs e` same.
mayb i jjus d0n wanna hear tyngs i d0n wan t0.
mayb i`m jjus runnin aweh.
findin xcuses fer myself n all.
mayb i rather tis weh.
i d0nn0.
e` reas0n why i d0n let y0o all understand mi is cuz i d0n even understand myself.
h0w am i supp0sed t0 let y0o understand me wen i d0n even understand?
we can`t c0mmunicate.
it`s n0t i d0n wan t0.
mayb i jjus dare n0t.
th0u` i n0e y0o wun get t0 read all tis,,
i still writes.
mayb i`m jjus expectin a MIRACLE.
\ i'm all about you.
4:08 PM
